No No No No No No No No.

i'm more confused about myself and others more so than i ever have been. when will the craziness stop.

Ha!

And maybe now I can shake this off and it'll be gravy from then on.

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"This is awkward, and sad."

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Don't be afraid, for I fall asleep in the brush outside, mouth dripping blood, and claws still out. I don't remember the nights before and I won't remember the nights to come. Women and children have the right to be scared, but don't worry my dear. No matter how beast like I can become, and no matter how far out my mind I can get, I would never in a thousand days hurt the one I love. For you will be the animal brushing the hair out my eyes the next morning.

Jehovahhhhhh.

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I'm going to party tomorrow and it's going to get fucking ugly. Look how cool I am, but not to a majority of you, I'm sure.
This is why I lose friends.

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A dog and a baby.

They're really good to me.

Happy birthday Jadeylyn :3

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Sunday December 6th, 6:30PM @ TGI Fridays

Birthday shindig for Jadeylyn and myself, so be there or be a fucking faggot.

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The best friend I ever had who decided moving to the opposite side of the country. That's all.

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Can't stay the same or something. It's just so weird. Your ideals jump so quick and your thought process is just so out there.

I don't think any of you are the same as you used to be. It's nothing I'm happy about.

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For once!

:D

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The need for attention from others is just baffling to me. Why anybody would want attention from me in any way confuses me. I've never demanded attention, or gotten depressed over it. I have better things to worry about, and so does everyone else. I guess me not getting it for a substantial period makes me just not want it. It's different for different people. Just relax. I wonder what jealousy in that tense feels like.

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My attitude changes everyday about everything. Some days I wake up and feel good, and my mood fluctuates so suddenly and rapidly that I'm just always nervous because I don't know how I'm going to feel a minute from now. I wouldn't go so far as to call myself bipolar, but I don't know any other explanation. I feel fine now, but the smallest thing will set me off and I don't know what to do about this problem. I blame my childish behavior that started a few years ago. I can't fix this and it's making me worry just a little bit. This was pointless but I felt like saying it, just so I know that it's out there. It doesn't need to be but here it is.

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i have nothing important to say, i'm not one of those environmentalist types, i don't care really about the government and what it "stands for" so i'm not game for a conversation.
heyyyyyy-o

i have fun. i love brett.

If you don't save these under .png, I will be very mad. And I will make you feel like a piece of shit.

:D
Not that any of you care to look, but there you go in case you want any.

and that's it.
i've been feeling extremely ashamed of myself for things i have no control over. i don't feel the same as the rest of you. these jokes get made, and i just go along with it. and in actuality i'm sitting here thinking "this sucks, it's like i'm the butt of these faggot jokes. i can't help how i feel. it sucks. they keep getting dragged on. 'god' did this to me. i blame him. he's the faggot. why can't you make jokes about that fucking jokester."

on another note, i did extremely well in the interview at target, but i didn't get the job. stupid fucking reasons.

hhhhhhhhhh.
i'm guessing the theater is the only job i'll ever know. sad, however true. i need to do something with my time. i need to be productive.
my dad thinks i live in tower now at azario's house. i don't even know what's going on with that. i'm still having my doubts. only because i don't trust joe. i wonder how long this will be an issue for.
chris can mentally abuse people and it's okay, but whenever anyone else does it, it's not okay.

god what i was i thinking. i wonder what's going to happen next. i feel like i'm too forgiving. i'm taking about 30 steps back. all this progress i've made the last year is going to shit. who cares. i know i'm being vague, but i won't tell you anyway. you'll just figure this out on your own.
i'll do what i want.
i don't care if you fucking judge me anyway.
it's not like we're going to be that close a little while down the road.

i love my family.
they won't judge me, no matter what i do. we're fuck up's. we stick together in that sense.
you can join me if you want, but i don't think you're down.

okay, that's enough being an asshole for me.
here's some fucking pictures i took.
i also sold out and made a flickr. but it's better than photobucket.

just in case you're interested.
http://www.flickr.com/photos/challls/



i really liked this one for some reason.

esteban being naughty

he was just holding ittttt

:)



and please, if you want any of these, when you save them save them in .png format so that my pictures don't look like a joke on myspace. thankssss

no .jpg for me.

LOLZ









(not a hickey, but who cares anyway?)

brother and his dog



>:3













alexis needs training wheels. this will keep happening.

lolzario

love my family.





good night.