No No No No No No No No.

The best friend I ever had who decided moving to the opposite side of the country. That's all.

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Can't stay the same or something. It's just so weird. Your ideals jump so quick and your thought process is just so out there.

I don't think any of you are the same as you used to be. It's nothing I'm happy about.

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For once!

:D

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The need for attention from others is just baffling to me. Why anybody would want attention from me in any way confuses me. I've never demanded attention, or gotten depressed over it. I have better things to worry about, and so does everyone else. I guess me not getting it for a substantial period makes me just not want it. It's different for different people. Just relax. I wonder what jealousy in that tense feels like.

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Filled with drunk people at Jaimie's. Everyone's playing beer pong and I'm just sitting, watching. It's not unenjoyable. I like observing sometimes. I keep hearing "gay cat boners" being yelled more loud than necessary. I guess it would be funny if I were friends with some of these people. I drive around a lot. I've been hanging out with my Aryan friends tonight. I.e. Brett and Alexis. It was fun. We make a good group of friends. I think there's money in my future. My palm's been itching lately. We'll see how this works out. Knowing me it'll be gone in a heartbeat.
Today I got my new phone. I opened it and then realized that there was no battery or backside to the phone. What the fuck!
Anyway, I don't want to go home tonight. I want to stay out. Knowing me, I'll be a chauffeur to a drunk. Or possible drunk(s).
I'm gonna get my oil changed soon. It's long needed. Maybe I should start taking the bus a lot more. I'll save more on gas. It's cool, I like the bus. Someone walk on my back. It needs to be popped good.

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My attitude changes everyday about everything. Some days I wake up and feel good, and my mood fluctuates so suddenly and rapidly that I'm just always nervous because I don't know how I'm going to feel a minute from now. I wouldn't go so far as to call myself bipolar, but I don't know any other explanation. I feel fine now, but the smallest thing will set me off and I don't know what to do about this problem. I blame my childish behavior that started a few years ago. I can't fix this and it's making me worry just a little bit. This was pointless but I felt like saying it, just so I know that it's out there. It doesn't need to be but here it is.

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i have nothing important to say, i'm not one of those environmentalist types, i don't care really about the government and what it "stands for" so i'm not game for a conversation.
heyyyyyy-o

i have fun. i love brett.

LOLZ









(not a hickey, but who cares anyway?)

brother and his dog



>:3













alexis needs training wheels. this will keep happening.

lolzario

love my family.





good night.

oh, well. i brought this upon myself.

don't know why, i just get in teh moodz.

i don't feel like showing them to you.

here's one of my super lame brother, being a fag. as usual >:3




nastay.

anyway, it's not a very good picture but that's what he looks like. i'm in a really 'i don't care' attitude lately. sorry if i've been short with any of you. that's just how i get from time to time, especially when i put myself in shitty situations more often than i really should be in them. i don't really blame myself. i'm gonna delete my myspace sometime this week. same goes for facebook. i think i'll just keep my livejournal.

i think i get annoyed way too easily. so i'll stop it right here. you're just a dumb little kid, with dumb little issues with your weight. that's all there is to it.

anyway, this should be a good week. going out of town with good people, getting paid, fixing my headlight. i'm getting back on track with school. i can't think of anything else i'd want right now.

this is a tendency from someone who can't sleep because he's that bored. i think a lot.

why do people worry about what kanye said about taylor swift at some retarded music awards thing when we have a trillion dollar defecit? why do people like rob thomas as an artist? same goes for drake. i'd like to know why people think it's okay to attack other people simply by what they heard about them, or their reputation? i've proven plenty of people wrong about other people because they said they didn't like so and so for this or that reason, and it's something that didn't even directly affect them. i don't think people need to worry about 2012 because it's really big headed of you to even think that you can estimate when the world is going to come to it's demise. don't be fucking stupid. love your country all you want, we still look bad to everyone else. gay's make being a homosexual look like a horrible, disgusting thing. so, one guy decided to fuck a monkey, i guess that makes gays disgusting. i can't bring up an idea without getting bitched at for it. i wonder if people think about the same dumb things i think about sometimes. maybe things like, if while they drive by a driveway they push their right big toe down, things i do like that. or like how i draw in the air, or that if i hear a song, i can play it on the piano. i don't know. i'd also like to know what the reasoning behind my bosses hiring so many people when we clearly didn't need any of them. or why friends say mean things about other friends. if they have a problem with them, just bring it up to them. you'll probably feel better about yourself when you present a problem and try and resolve it, instead of going behind somebody's back and then it getting back to them. just risky business right there. i want to know why christians think they can fix things that can't be fixed, like how somebody is wired. why people are "proud" of their race. you can't be proud of something that involuntarily chose you. you can really only be proud of something that you chose to do. same goes for those gays. you shouldn't be proud of yourselves. you have nothing to be proud of. take it from me.

that's it for me. i don't know if anybody is going to read this, it seems like that lately. plus the length probably won't help any.

i'm going to try and sleep. but i don't expect much to happen.

yes.

i'm gonna start cutting cords. i don't like cords.
i'm in a good place right now. kind of. in literal terms it isn't, in my own head it is. i don't know why, i like not knowing what's going to happen next. and even if it's bad things. just not financial bad things.
god i'm weird.

anyway, i'm havin' lunch with brett. he's cool. i like brett. i love brett. he's my favorite.
i can't wait to find another job and start making money again. hopefully though after this review i'll get like, a 10 cent raise though :O
i know my review is being done right now. i'm tight with everybody at work that's at a higher level than i am on the chain. they tell me things.
and they give me good reviews.

loveloveloevleoevleovaksdjlkfjsadkl

no need to be pessimistic though, right. things will work out. they always do i guess.

with chris and christina.

yeah, i've been taking pictures with my camera all night. i don't know why azario keeps saying it sucks because it's actually a really nice camera and i think i take nice pictures.
i'm mad at myself that i couldn't make the deposit for the house. but i will move in, in due time. and by the way, i didn't fucking bail. so don't be a dick.

into the "cum cave"

X{

alrighty. that's all i gotta say about that.

i had a little breakthrough yesterday. i'm a little bit happier.

i guess i need to get mad in order to be in a good mood. release some tension.

i'm still sick today. i don't know how long this is going to last, but i'm hoping it's not going to last long.
let's seeeee


work at 5
possible hanging out afterwards (if anyone's out and about)
gotta finish this assignment i've been working on

that's it for me. also, i have some pictures i took yesterday that i'm hoping with grab the attention of the people i sent them to.

bye.

fuck
fuck fuckufkfkcukfuck

i can't do it.

sorry.

When I got back from Reno I had this disgusting sore throat and a stuffed up nose. I don't know who's to blame, but I feel like shit.

I've got work from 6:15 to 11 tonight. I got a call yesterday saying not to come in on Saturday for my opening shift. It makes me mad that I didn't entirely do anything wrong to deserve my hours to get cut. I really need them if I need to make my deposit on the 31st. It's freaking me out that I might not make it.
School sucks too. I've missed a couple of days already, but I had good reasons. Two more good reasons and I'll be dropped from that class. It feels like I'm doing nothing with myself.  People might think they're better than me or something.
I don't think it's true, but whatever the case is I'm a skeptic and I won't agree with you if you tell me otherwise.

You probably are better than me in some ways. I'm too afraid to say things that will ruin relationships. So I'm gonna keep my mouth shut.
Here's some things I generally miss.

-Whole Foods.
-Hanging out with a best friend regularly.
-Being 15 pounds lighter.
-Living with my mom kind of.
-Getting hours at work.
-Not driving.
-Not owing money to anybody for any reason.
-Not my dad.
-Being fun.
-Being content with what's going on around me.

Bye.

thanks.

i'm gonna go drive somewhere right now.
so, i'm getting really tired. i have to poop too.

man, why is everyone being mean to me.
not everyone.

hey, call me more. i'm jealous.
kbai.